One night of heaven for a year and a half of hell.



See you next July.

One entire year later, and She is still getting in other peoples cars.
Man I fucked this one up.


You think a year passes and its done, but you can never replace, only put off.

mood: blank

I took a drive today, thought about you.
Thought about a friend who passed, and how much we just went through.
I saw the sun shine off the hood of a Cadillac,
I thought about some things I'd say, and some I would take back.
I thought about how fortunate I feel to be alive.

And if you're scared of the future tonight,
we'll just take it each hour one at a time.
It's a pretty good night for a drive,
so dry up those eyes, dry up those eyes.
Because the radio will still play loud,
songs that we heard as our guards came down.
Like in the summertime when we first met,
I'll never forget, don't you forget,
these nights are still ours.

I still love the way you smile.
I still love the ocean.
We should remember to slow down more often, maybe we will.
There's a lotta good things coming our way right now.
A lotta bad had passed but we survived the breakdowns.
All is forgiven, water under bridges now.

Is not a green tea, she is a human, unlike black people, who dont have families, specially if theyre fat only cause if youre fat you die of heart attacks and diabetes so then their fat parents die and they eat cause there so depressed and then die too.

except some of them live and then taint society for the rest of us.

ruin lives, and the world



if god was real everyone would be skinny, cause you know fat people pray to be skinny

No it doesn't hurt
Everything just is and that's just how it's gonna be
There was a part of you, born at fifteen now it's dead at twenty
Gone with all those friends, gone with the people we used to be

You know we never needed high school
Together we agreed when asked
We'd say fuck you
I don't need anything you have to offer,
As long as we have each other
Felt like we were unstoppable

Now we've made these choices together
Got the bad tattoos to prove it
Scarred into my arms, these are mistakes, this is the score,
And these are the stories of victory
The story of how we grew apart

Now I, I'd take a bullet, I'd spend the night in jail
Quitting a job, leaving the town tonight
And still I'd say I'm so sorry, that if I could change anything
I'd bring us back here again
But I know we're not coming back here again

Its depressing to see someone change so much in a such a short period of time, but why am I letting it get me so down..

They're clearly not effected by it, so why should I be.

I feel better now, it took the right sequence of events for me to realize this, but now that I have, I feel a change coming around.

It's all about face value, you can never look to deep, most of time its an act anyways.

you would have been something id be good at..

maybe i would have been something youd be good at!

old shit....




on repeat

Here nothing grows. Here nothing lives. Do you dream of the future or do you live in the past? Are you out for humanity or a gender, race, or class? Are you dilligently fighting with the movement, or fighting the blind cause? If you were given freedom would that be an end? If you were given the means would you use them to your benefit?

Could you survive in this world without your fucking technology? Your conveniences that have cowardly carved a brilliant way of life, dependent on oppression of the way of nature. Pollute the environment for a cheap fix of flexing useless capabilities. All in the name of what? Our arrogance, this need for dominance. Well I am not so blind.

Despite our belief we are not the greatest species in existence. We are not the missing link, this is not advancement, the truth remains the same. As we push forward searching for our destiny, which we know damn well is death, I sing a song in desperation for the dying, those who could all be helped so easily. Those who fill your fucking plate. All in the name of what? Our arrogance, this need for dominance. Well I am not so blind.

K- KOOL

R- RIGHTOUS

I- IDEALISTIC

S- SUPER

T- TIGHT

E- EVANGALISTIC

N- NEVER WRONG!!!!

location: KristenLand mood: bitchy music: Hilary Duff

J- Jacked


A- Airtight


C- Cannibal


K- Kool


I- Iconoclast


E- Eeeeek

JAKE JAKE JAKE JAKE JAKE JAKE JAKE JAKE JAKE



JACKIE JACKIE

Wouldnt it be cool if people listens to their "bestfriends" opposed to their significant others..

Man, would that be a perfect world.

But, I guess boyfriends/girlfriends never lie, and bestfriends are just trying to fuck you over around every corner.

Of course this is the rationale of a human being who didnt understand why two people in a boxing match were fighting, or why a bull was angry after someone rode him for 8 seconds...


This opens up a new subject; what are they teaching in colleges and highschools these days..

people are completely ignorant and refuse to get their facts straight, and then accuse other people of being stubborn.

open youre fucking eyes and use the little bit of common sense you have...

Title says it all.
If you disagree, you are wrong.

My life is on repeat.


Im beginning something that has the familiar ring of another chapter in my life, one i promised would never happen again.


I've been breaking alot of promises i made myself recently, and when i do, i make a new promise, that will eventually be broken as well.

But alas, when you're as confused as I, promises almost have to be broken, because as things start to unravel around you, old promises become obsolete.

I picture my life as a book, when im old and ready to die (as in the end of the book), every little mystery and lose end of my life will make perfect sense, and ill see it as one big picture.

Until that day, ill do my best to understand it all.

Build a wall of books
Between us in our bed
Repeat, repeat the words
That I know we both said
Relax into the need
We get so comfortable
Remember when I was
So strange and likeable
I just want back in your head
I just want back in your head
I'm not unfaithful
But I'll stray
When I get a little scared
When I get a little scared
When I get a little
When I jerk away from
Holding hands with you
I know these habits hurt
Important parts of you
Remember when I was
Sweet and unexplainable
Nothing like this person,
Unlovable
I just want back in your head
I just want back in your head
I'm not unfaithful
But I'll stray
When I get a little scared
When I get a little scared
When I get a little scared
When I get a little
Run, run, run Run Run, run, run
Run I just want back in your head
I just want back in your head
I'm not unfaithful
But I'll stray

Lately everyones confused

but what is confusion? 
is it bad?
is it good?
i guess its a matter of perception, but i believe confusion is something that should be embraced
do you want to be sure of everything?
how boring would life be without confusion!

who would really want to know what to do in every situation, who would want to know every outcome

life is a series of cliffs, if youre brave enough to jump off them all and except every resulting consequence, youre going to have an amazing life.
When you hit the bottom, its ok, even good, to be confused, BUT never regret jumping!

The only negative thing you can feel is regret. Anger, sadness, depression, etc, are all emotions that are considered by most negative, but none compare to regret, because regret leads to all these.

The point im trying to make is be confused, be unsure, have unknowns, but dont let these control you, use them, embrace them.
You will NEVER know what to do, you will ALWAYS be confused, all we can do is make the best decisions possible and stick by them no matter what.

These are the best years of our live only because we have room for confusion
of course adults are confused, but they cant change aspects of their lives because of it
they have to come to terms with it, they cant act on whims because their lives are so structured..

were young, we are confused, unsure, and we make mistakes, but dont let anything keep you from getting what you want, cause youll never know what might have happened if you just went for it, tell everyone everything and dont hold anything back, you never know when that person wont be there anymore..


I use to think i should walk away, Im more glad then youll ever know that i didnt.